Legible Kindness

Dear stranger,

What actually happened y'day was...i was trying to be on schedule, i alwasy try to be on one. Getting things done on time, follwong a pattern, trying to be safe, taking mild risks, all part of the BIG game, i guess. All this becoz i have set high standards for myslef, some i cant even accomplish, even daily tasks i try to do with such organization, that my mind is getting tired of keeping up with the details. Where i keep my recycled batteries, where i keep my childhood pictures, where is my sons birth certificate etc, just to keep on top of things i quiz myself, to make sure i remember. Yeah i know...

In such a rush after my errand at post office and giving my son his trip to Library and taking out some cool books, i just wanted to get home in time to feed my toddler and put him down for his noon nap. All has to be done by 1-1.15pm. Back to the point, in that rush, i put the library books on the bonnet so that i could unlock the car while i was holding my son. Except after strappin ghim in, i never got to pick up the books.

I didnt realize until later after i got home. Yet, i didnt rush back for the books, i still questioned myself what was the right thing to do, to go look for the books or feed my todd. I fed his mac n'cheese, yougurt and strapped him back in the car and rushed to the crime scene.

No luck, no books strewn across the parking lot ! i knew my bad luck was a part of it. I Kept asking myself, what was wrong with me, how could i be so stupid, how come i was losing it, do i have any ounce of capability and efficiency left to do mundane tasks?? I beat mysel fup over this for a most of the day and when i hit the sack it struck me i forgot all about it. I realized, good things happen to people who do good deeds so i left it at that.

Today, I swayed in my daily activites, taking my tyke out and all that, i forgot to check my online library a/c. When i did, Viola, what do i see, you returned my books. THANK YOU, THANK YOU, THANK YOU...

Humanitly is still out there, thank you caring enough to put the books back in the returns.

I'll pay it forward.

Love,
Me